Don't You Hate It?

"Messing up" in life is embarassing. When I mess something up, I think I'm the hardest on myself. I become embarassed, confused, I over-compensate, and then when I feel bad enough, I apologize to anyone effected by my mistake. We learn from our mistakes in life, and they add character. Hence, it seems that the rewards from "failure" outweigh the "stupid consequences", but the "ride" is so bumpy sometimes... we get shaken up almost to the point of being unrecognizable afterwards. Sometimes, it seems the "ride" isn't worth it.
Thank you for your consideration.
Me.

Heaven Grants Glimpses...

"Heaven grants glimpses only to those not in a position to look too close."

-Robert Frost

I stood outside for about an hour and a half. It was 8 degrees out, and about every 15 minutes, I could catch a glimpse of the lunar eclipse. My tripod "burned" my unprotected hands which I uncovered to be able to push the small buttons, and manipulate the tiny dials on my camera. Between pictures I'd walk a little to keep warm, and driving lights in the darkness slowed... inquisitive. I was tracking the clouds, and could tell when, and where I would catch my glimpses, then I'd run back to the camera to take another set of shots. I had four opportunities to take my pictures in that time, and I got twenty-two of them. I was zoomed in so far that my shivering hands blurried most of them. This was my D-Day invasion, I guess. Of those twenty-two pictures, two of them came out. I carried my tripod back into my home, my hands frozen to the legs until I reached the warmth of the house. I ran to the computer to see what I could see. I was amazed that I had gotten two good pictures!

It really wasn't about those, was it?

Thank you for your consideration.

Me.

I've lost my hate. Now my head is cold.

Love and hate. More specifically, love and hate/violence. If you graph the "high" associated with both, the X axis being time, and the Y axis being the emotion felt, hate/violence creates a swift upturn on the Y axis, and then a sudden drop to the norm, whereas love creates a more gradual plateau. The results indicate that love is actually more of a gradual, prolonged "high" and that hate/violence result in a more intense, shorter lasting "high".
Both, however, can be imitated, biologically, by eating large amounts of chocolate.
Thank you for your consideration.
Me.

Did Doogie Howser just steal my f&*#%ing car?

So, it has been many moons since I have written to my blog fans. I have discovered a great site on the internet dedicated to being a solitary person. It's a place where you can discuss views and opinions on staying out of society's hair. Basically, it's a small meeting place for people that don't want to meet. Even the anonymous persons of the world want to be heard.
Categorization. People need categories. Labels. Things must be labeled to be understood. We even have labels for our labels. They're called labels!! So... how long has it been since you've come across something that has "mystery" to it? Science, religion, society... they all have names for stuff. There's even categories for the unknown. It's a linear system, as well as circular. Categories breed more categories which, in turn, breed more categories. It sometimes amazes me. Anyhoo... when a person can't be categorized, they are outcast. The "majority" can't deal with it, so they don't. Mob mentality. I've noticed that people are stupid. A person can be very intelligent, but people are stupid. And the bad thing is 1 person that is intelligent can't fight the people that are stupid. They're too strong. They have numbers and resources that the 1 person doesn't have. So, what happens to that 1 person? They're squished. They're run over, destroyed, dis-allowed. They don't count because they don't follow the "rules". And... this has always happened. Women, black people, Jewish people, anything that isn't in the "majority" at the time.
But... have you ever noticed that no matter what, eventually the people in the "minority" are recognized? As it turns out, we actually DO have something to say. We do have ideas to contribute to society. Sometimes, we even improve it a bit. We tend to look at problems differently, and discover new ways to solve those problems. When we look at a tree, we don't see a green amorphous shape, we see leaves, and bark, and the view behind the tree. It's all in how we see the world.
Sometimes there is a realization that looking at something through another person's eyes changes your perspective.
Thank you for your consideration.