Don't You Hate It?

"Messing up" in life is embarassing. When I mess something up, I think I'm the hardest on myself. I become embarassed, confused, I over-compensate, and then when I feel bad enough, I apologize to anyone effected by my mistake. We learn from our mistakes in life, and they add character. Hence, it seems that the rewards from "failure" outweigh the "stupid consequences", but the "ride" is so bumpy sometimes... we get shaken up almost to the point of being unrecognizable afterwards. Sometimes, it seems the "ride" isn't worth it.
Thank you for your consideration.
Me.

Heaven Grants Glimpses...

"Heaven grants glimpses only to those not in a position to look too close."

-Robert Frost

I stood outside for about an hour and a half. It was 8 degrees out, and about every 15 minutes, I could catch a glimpse of the lunar eclipse. My tripod "burned" my unprotected hands which I uncovered to be able to push the small buttons, and manipulate the tiny dials on my camera. Between pictures I'd walk a little to keep warm, and driving lights in the darkness slowed... inquisitive. I was tracking the clouds, and could tell when, and where I would catch my glimpses, then I'd run back to the camera to take another set of shots. I had four opportunities to take my pictures in that time, and I got twenty-two of them. I was zoomed in so far that my shivering hands blurried most of them. This was my D-Day invasion, I guess. Of those twenty-two pictures, two of them came out. I carried my tripod back into my home, my hands frozen to the legs until I reached the warmth of the house. I ran to the computer to see what I could see. I was amazed that I had gotten two good pictures!

It really wasn't about those, was it?

Thank you for your consideration.

Me.

I've lost my hate. Now my head is cold.

Love and hate. More specifically, love and hate/violence. If you graph the "high" associated with both, the X axis being time, and the Y axis being the emotion felt, hate/violence creates a swift upturn on the Y axis, and then a sudden drop to the norm, whereas love creates a more gradual plateau. The results indicate that love is actually more of a gradual, prolonged "high" and that hate/violence result in a more intense, shorter lasting "high".
Both, however, can be imitated, biologically, by eating large amounts of chocolate.
Thank you for your consideration.
Me.